I can hear u breathing

2008-12-18T14:08:00.003+08:00

today marks the 19th months that we are together.
eventhough these past few weeks have been rough. but i still love her anyway.
just hope that this relationship will last and that she will always be happy.
happy 19th monthsary dear.

2008-12-13T15:42:00.004+08:00

why?
why must this be happening..
why must we talk about it
why?
its ok...later it seems that im blaming u...
saying things so hurtful..u think ur the only one who is sad
well think again
me too have my feelings...not only u..
why do u have to be so hard up on me... as if i have done things that u cant forgive me with.
sitting alone at home today really adds up to the sadness.
sigh... treat me so harsh as if its gonna make things better.
so timid of me??
im not timid..im just afraid i might hurt u more... cant u see..all i can do is make u angry.
sighh..i have my feelings too.
yar after reading this u would somehow make fun of it..
its ok...i wouldnt want to blame u..im not blaming u either..
everything it will seem as if im blaming u.
so what for.
what for telling u how i feell...cause u urself are not good and im the cause of it..
sighh...i dun want say further..so selfish of me..i should think of others right..
like u said..i NEVER did understand u at all..

Well. YOUR WRONG!!
good bye
oh im the fucker who ran away...
thnks so much darling

2008-12-07T10:56:00.002+08:00

wah...
so long i never update...
haha...

been rather sick lately, sad. hurt. humiliated.
sigh...shes mad at me..because of those pictures at my brother's wedding.
she say alot of things that is so mean at her post. well its just how she get back at me.
letting everyone read about out private life. but im not gonna do that.
im just gonna tell u people how i feel. but not everything as somethings are just meant to be kept to oneself.
sigh. how can u say such things.
its not me who have the say back then. its my brothers wedding
yar we took pictures like its a family. BUT deep inside me. wishing that is was YOU.
i may smile but on the inside..im just so sad hurt that u are not invinted..
how i wish i can turn back time.
convincing my parents. But i dont want to be some child who is not obedient. i dont want that.
i have to follow my parents wishes and most importantly, my brother's as it is his wedding after all. i can expect people to follow what i want. Somethings in life that u want u can never get right?
i mean its just that i hope she understands. hope she would not take revenge.
its not me who wants this. I NEVER WANT THAT AT ALL.
but i have to follow.
why do u have to say those mean words.
i didnt mean to hurt u. if u want to get back at me.. then thats fine..
like u said. but i will never do things intentionally just to hurt u...
sigh...all i can do is just wish for the best...

why do u have to say those mean words....

2008-11-27T08:38:00.002+08:00

wow..
really excited. my eldest brother is going to get a baby girl soon..maybe around the afternoon
im sure he is so anxious waiting outside the delivery room now.
so excited for him..
i wonder what will he and his wife name the babygirl.
haha..im gona be an uncle soonn...soo ollllllddddd...khekhe

haish
start of the day was bad...
its not worth telling.
it will just be seen as im blaming.
Not worth telling

2008-11-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

i know its been long...since i updated...haish...
i have no to turn to.... feeling so lonely
alot has been happening lately...
happiness....fights..sadness..fightss...happiness...fightss and now...pure sadness...
so i decided to write a post.

sigh...this is to my dearest..
I know i have not been a good boyfren lately...blaming u...for everything.
im not.im not blaming u at all...its just that.. maybe im egoistic or something or im just dam stupid..
i am really feeling so down right now..being put down...harshness..without any feel for another person,maybe i deserve it...but not to this extend...its ok..i have to bear the consequences..
but i have feelings tooo...i know i hurt u..and im sorry..i didnt mean to hurt u. i dint mean to give u pain...never did i give up on us..but u did and i understand.its all me..im just so plain dumb that i cant even make u happy..now apart..wondering are u thinking of me now?? my mind have been occupied by u always...i wish i can be with u. happy moments...but i always have to ruin everything.
baby, im sorry for all the hurt and pain i gave u.
ill swear that i will make it up to u oneday..
please give me another chance so that my goal can be achieve; to make u happy.
i admit.im not perfect. not a perfect boyfren to u..
im just sorry...
yes this would not change anything...but..i just want u to know.
my life with u has been colourful...i dun want this to end. not ever..
ur my fren, my bestfren, my lover, my sayang, my baby, my love....
i have never been so happy until i met u...
kept thinking of when we got together..it was so sweet.. how i wish i can go back...
go back..ammend for the mistake i had done, for all the hurt i cause..
i really cherish u...please..dont leave.....

p.s. i miss u.forgive me my love.

2008-10-15T12:40:00.003+08:00

now at class...dang i hate it. really hate it.

all talk but no work. so what ur points that YOU SAY are good...or whatever shit. BLOWING SMOKE. then go watch ur shit at ur shitty laptop

haha.idiots.

well. yesterday was fun. I really wanted to buy her a small gift that can make her happy.

so on monday, i did search for the gift but unfortunately, northpoint was on renovation!!

dang. so i have to buy it infront of her at CP.

she got angry as i used my money on her but when i explained, she started cooling off and she was really happy about it.

wohoo!!

this is what i bought for her

2008-10-14T11:05:00.009+08:00

wohooo.... alot happened lately..as usual im in school . haha with nothing to do..

alot have been happening dring the weekends!!

i go jalan raya with my gf and my friends.

firstly went to wani's house to visit her mum.. hee
took some pictures.

then first house was aidil's house.. alot of food being served. LONTONG. SAMBAL PRAWNS. and much more. Ate till i cant eat no more. wakakaka

wohoo delicious meal mann... wahh..almost everyhouse we went, theres foodd!!!!

im gonna gain wait lar..dangg. think 2 kgs already.

wohooo.reach home around 1030 cause i was too tired because the previous night, i went to jb and reach home around 6 am then 930 woke up lioazzz....

dang. here are some pictures!!

2008-10-06T22:54:00.002+08:00

well. taoday start of the day feeling sick.
bought panadol during the first break out and i ate two tablets and after 12, fortunately felt better.
the day's module was ocmmunications. EXPRESS YOURSELF!
heh... its not like i dun do this..which human doesnt express themselves.
even animals express ..stupid problem.
but nvm... when i came school the first thing that came to my mind was to go out with bubbles just to shop ...
welll..
after school we went to my bike shop, paid some amount of money, then went to bugis....
heheh... wanna spoil my girlfy a lil bit....
heh, bought her a new pair of jean, porkpie hat and a oasis vintage shirt at bugis.
haha
bought myself two new pairs of boxers, and a pair of shades....
woohoo...
it was fun though... i just want to spend on wani as finally i can cause its been long since i spoil her abit.
heheh...but looking forward to the big shopping spree cum 18 october i hope!
HAHAH
peace out!!

2008-10-02T08:43:00.006+08:00

Hari Raya!
its here and today its the second day and im back to school.
dang...doesnt feel like hari raya at all..

first day, stayed at home cause my mum is not in good terms with her relatives..

but can't wait for saturday though

will be going to visit my relatives on my father's side. wohoo!!

cant wait

ALot been happening.

been working for the F1 ..last fri to sunday.

phew..

its was a tiring 3 days..all i know is that i worked more than 15 hours each day.

then had less than 10 hours of sleep for the whole three days..

so that makes... around 4 hours each day..

wohooo.. here are some pictures!!

2008-09-22T08:46:00.000+08:00

I'm slippin' away

In every way

I can't stay awake

I'm slippin' away

I'm trying to make it through each day

I'm fallin apart now in every way

I'm findin' it harder to get by

Theres a hole in my heartAnd,

I dont know why

Now I've come to realize

I'm slippin' away

sum41

2008-09-19T22:11:00.003+08:00

this feeling i have inside of me
fuck
i hate it..

at least we can talk this out..
whether without the feeling of being pissed or emoshit or what ever it is..

initiative...

P.S. im so missing u

2008-09-17T08:53:00.002+08:00

what the fuck lar.im suffocating..
feel like im dying.
why can just this once.
i want to burst out everything adn u just hear me out without putting werds into my pathetic mouth?
rude?
rudeness??
really?? how many times u have been rude. mother fucker? pathetic asshole?
what else is there...i cant remember as it is too hurtful to remember..
haish...
just this once..
please

forgive me.

2008-09-13T14:24:00.002+08:00

saturday.. hmmm..no plans.so bored.
wanna go out.but no where to go.
for the past two days have been trying to fix the cupboard that my dad bought for me and my brother.it was tough i should say.
but mange to assemble it all up together and now putting all my stuff in it.
wohooo

hmmm.. im really quite disturbed about something....
i know i shouldnt take a look at the photos.
but i was just curious. im really sorry i take a look at it.
the date was dated last year. 07-07.......but im sure it was last year's
so close...so intimate.
but i guess i shouldnt be worrying about it...
yarh
i trust her and what im sure of that she loves me and all that matters.
yarh..stupid hasif...
hee

should think of what to do.
i really wanna get my bike fixed. soon
peace out!

2008-09-08T08:49:00.005+08:00

beat...thats one thing that i can describe myself today.
beat.
well...yesterday i worked for like 15 hours???
10am - 1 am....
how would u feel if u have to worked for more than 12 hours???
standing, serving, running around to meet guest needs. Carrying tables...chairs.. loading and unloading the essentials to the huge lorry...
dammm...my muscles are killing me..its like carrying a load on my back which can never bee removed except for resting though..GOSSHHH.

The first thing that came to my mind was.REDBULL!!
BUT...IM FASTING!!!
dang...really need it man...like REALLY REALLY
gosh...but its all worth it though.. I GOT A HUNDRED BUCKS JUST FOR TIPS!!!
weee...one step closer to the RED PSP
wohoo!!!
ok deyyyyy...gtg..class is starting
peace out!

2008-09-05T21:58:00.003+08:00

wahhhh! its been long since i updated...verry2 long..hahaha
should start updating more frequently.
well firstly i would like to say.. Happy fasting to all those muslims and my muslim friends who are really fasting
hahah
secondly..SCHOOL!!! has already started.
new friends, new atmosphere

hahaha..school been quite ok but the facis that i met for the past three days are rather strange and different from my last sem facis.
They are either funny or strict in a way..Are there like no female facis this term????
hmmm...i was quite happy with my GPA though for last sem. 3.4...could have done better
but i think this sem im gonna flop as there are many good or should i say, brilliant speakers or enthusiastic people in my class..dammm
should work harder though..hehehe

Been creating new friends in class and so far...my classmates are all great..
i think that this class can really rock my smelly socks!!!
hahaha..kidding
hmmm
sunday i have work
rumours leaked out that we're gonna get tip of 100 bucks i guess( I HOPE!)
girlfy really wants the red psp and i really hope we can get it by end of this month
weeeeee..................
hmmm

Previous class chalet was fun..Kinda sad but i liked to thank all those people who attend that day. kinda miss my old class mates where we gossip or eat together at the canteen
hahaha...GOSSIP AND RUMOURS!!
that was today's problem
kinda fun though
hee
well....i really think that i should update this blog more often though.
is there anything that i can do to really like boost my interest in this blog of mine???
haha
gtg
peace out!

2008-08-11T22:53:00.002+08:00

hmmss...
tmr's the last day of schooll...
goshh..
gonna miss my classmates..
these type of people is what they call "SHIOK"
haha
never did i have a bored moment whenever im with them
haish
next sem.
change class..
new people
have to adapt..
all over again...
wooossshh..
but life has to go on..
wishh u all the best to people from W24Q..
gonna miss u guys..

weell..
alot have been happening lately.
Got a gig on NDP at SCAPE.
crowd wasnt too bad
but was that bad..
i dunnoo..hmmmm
after gig i have no plans at all. went to PS with my dearest.
then
decide to meet my parents....
but sad thng is.. my parents still hate her.
what did she do? Can parents stop stereotyping?
why cant they get to know her?
has she done anything wrong to my parents??
maybe because my parents want to protect me?
NO.
i chose not to accept that.
i know my parents dont want to get me hurt.
but
this is what i want now, FOREVER.
Im happy with her...
why cant my mum accept that.
haish

im happy that u realise that ur family is precious
but i just dont understand what ur tryin to say there...
i myself is deeply hurt to see u cry.
i want my family accept u like ur family accept me..
but if u want to leave.
i dun blame u for that.

hope is all i have.
and time is all i need.
to make things right.
but if it were to go otherwise
please...forgive me

2008-08-04T21:07:00.002+08:00

haish...
feel kinda down...
i dunno why..
im just so sad.
maybe because
i miss u.
didnt receive any msg from u
eversince i came back from school.
except the one I msg u
thats it
it ends there...
urge to msg...
but
dont wanna disturb ur peace...
listening to second hand serenade..
just couldnt help this feeling.
i know i know.
shouldnt listen to these type of songs
but it reflects my mood
cant help but feeling down...

I need u now...
where are u...

2008-07-29T22:07:00.003+08:00

met up with best friends
it was fun
get to know alot of things.
just sad to see nana having som problems with her parents.
with her boyfriend
very sad.
hope she can be happy
hang in there kaes.

haish
tmr.
girlfy
not coming to shool
same goes to thursday
shes going out
haish
dunno why still have this feeling
should get rid of it
yeah.
hope she'll have fun though

ought to have a seoul garden feast with girlfy.......

2008-07-23T21:28:00.002+08:00

wohooo...
well
life's been good
me and gfy are managing well..
cant wait for her Birthday though
i want to make it a special one for her.
hee

Firstly, just change some parts of my bike on monday
Sprocket $180
lights $???
ermm
engine oil $28
overall $230
its like wow
but..
my dad pay for me
woohooo
my mum was there too
i was surprised
actually right the sprocket cost around $120.
but it was local made
then my dad said to the mechanic
NO NO i want japan made
i was like, "What the???!!!"
so thats why it cost $180
mummy was like
its ok
dun worry lar.
Ur dad's treat.
i was smiling away
after that
i thanked my parents of course.
hee
thanks!!!

but more complications rose.
my engine, piston to be exact
is creating some problems
according to the mechanic.
he says
"lu punya piston da tada power lar. Lonnngggaaaaaaa"
i was like what the hell is he talking??????
can u imagine an apek speaking to u in malay which u cant understand
then my dad
translate
wahha
then i understand
if i wanna fix it
it would cost me alot
but
i think i can still use my bike
hee

schooolll
haish
theres this one irritating bitch in my class
as a friend
shes ok
but as a classmate and a teammember
shes a bitch
i dun understand why she has to think highly of herself
i think what elizabeth said was true enough
but its ok
feww more weeks to go
and i can say good bye to u bitch
DONT SUCK UP TO THE FACIS CAN??

well thats all for now
cheers!!!!

2008-07-21T08:38:00.002+08:00

haishhhhh..
guess what...i was getting ready for school.
sat on my bike
waiting for the engine to heat up
suddenly
SNAPPP!!!!
my bag strap broke
i was like
FUCKKK!!
luckily i have an extra bag
hmmm

I dont know what's got into her.
hope ur okay..
haish

2008-07-14T20:08:00.003+08:00

phewww....
its been long since i updated...
now..
sitting in my room
alone
haha

just read girlfy's old entries...
life really change..
haha
for her
i think its for the better( cause i think she got me..hahahhaha!!)*lame
but
from what i can read...
she changed alot..
for the better.
eventhough i dont know her in the past
but now
shes really like the one im looking for
(good looks, smart, great personality)
(orang yang bacer ni....jngn kembang eh...hahahha!!!)
yar
back to englishh...
haa
reading through
i recall back sweet and bitter(mostly sweet lar) when im with her
the process of us knowing each other was cute in our own way..
im happy now
even though im in hot soup
but she stayed by my side

i admit that there havee been some fights, arguments, dissagreements
but
she hang on to me
i am trully one lucky guy
hahah!!
got this phrase that captures my heart in her blog
"now i realise that i fell in love with him..so..i luve u can?=p"
that was sweet

well
thats enough for the day...
gt to do my RJ
CRAPPPP!!!!
haha
lazy la

ps: i love u

2008-07-09T08:55:00.002+08:00

today..
start of the day....
shit
first thing came to my mind when i came school was...
I WANNA FUCKING GO home
haish
no mood to study at all..
crap.

2008-07-05T20:12:00.003+08:00

i pass my prac 3(2a)
pass my btt(basic theory test)
hmm
yar...
that's it...
hmm
yarh....

5th august traffic police test(2a)
1 sept final theory
hmm
yarh..
that's that....
....
...
bye

2008-07-02T20:46:00.002+08:00

pheww...
alot of things happen lately...

firstly
MBS just recorded one of their originalss
wohoooo
it was cooll!!!
haha
when i came into the recording roomm
i was like
JAW DROPPED
hahaha
not exactly
but
it was like the coolest thing
haaa!!!
recording was like tough
but fun though.
hee

today supposed to go out with my closest frens....
but didnt manage to..
kinda last minute....
its been long since i hang out with them
yarhh
kinda sad...
cant make it
but hope there will be a gathering soon...

2008-06-29T21:25:00.004+08:00

week nine have been good

after weeks of school

beginning to know the bad side of people

but its ok

everybody has their bad side

right???

hakzz

but the thing i hate most about group work,

PBL(prblem based learning)

that the faci dont really quite know who really contribute

and whos not

its like it is based on thier presentation

and participation in class

but

they do not know what happened during break

yar

who gets the job done and all

haa

its ok

and the best thing is

i got my first X for the week

weeee!!!

2008-06-25T19:34:00.002+08:00

ok...
what a bad day it is.
firstly school.
i admit
it really starts to tear me down
as in
tired lar....
hahah
stupid topic
science
tmr...maths!!!
like crap!!!
maths is even worse lar sey
haa
feel like skipping tmr.

haish
i dunno why u are angry at me.
maybe because ive made a mistake that im not aware of.
maybe..
i understand that u are angry at ur sister
i dont blame u.
neither do i blame ur sis.
maybe because its the way i teach her
that confuse her or something
im sorry.
haish
i admit
im sad
but i just dont understand
maybe your not yourself today
yar
maybe.

then when going home she used to send me down.
but just now
she didnt
i asked
u said"for what?"
that was really heart dropping
but its ok..
i understand(i guess)
haishh
how i wish u could just tell me.
im sorry if i have done anything wrong...
got to do my rj
ciaooss.....

2008-06-20T20:07:00.003+08:00

sigh
what a day...
what a way to end the week of school.
sigh
if ur not happy.
can say it to my face.
i know my voice was loud
but i did not meant to BROADCAST or whatever ur trying to pull.
FUCK
sighhh
then u think im happier alone???
if im happier alone?
would i need u at all???
Fuck
think about it
but well
out of RESPECT which i learnt today
its your freaking opinion
u are entitled to it
say what u wanna say
think what u wanna think
i dun care anymore
I DONT CARE
as long as i know
what i am doin
btw
if u think i make u cancel ur attachment
ur WRONG
u dont want to go
thats ur freaking problem

2008-06-19T20:53:00.007+08:00

ok....

wow!!

haha

its been 13 months with her

its been great.

still owe her a song though

lyrics.

cordss

but no worries.

i will do the best i can

Love u girlfy.

oohohoh btw

i will be very busy this sunday

wanna noe why?

this is why

Murder By Ska (my band)

will be having competition on the first part of the day

then gig at home club!!!

wohooo!!!

2008-06-15T21:50:00.002+08:00

tmr...
when i think of tmr i go
SIGHH
wanna noe why?
SCHOOL!!!!!
that is why.
hahk!

had fun just now morning
went bowling with girlfy and her family.
it was great
i get to show off my talent!!
haha
okok
just joking.
hee
but it was my best game ever
first game(143)
second game(130++)(cant remember)
my points went down cause kinda tired lors
but i had so much fun
hahaha!!!
actually
wanna follow them to have lunch
but
time wont let me

went audition for this competition shit thingy
hah!
didnt bring my guitar.
COCK UP!!!!
we did our best
now waiting for the results
*anxious*
Cheers!

2008-06-10T21:32:00.006+08:00

u know....
now i realize how lucky i am
how lucky i am to have a mum like my mum
to have a gf like her
get to where i wanted.
health
what more can i want.

baby.
im sorry
im sorry for all the things i did.
if u think im pretending.
im not
HONEST
im sad
yes i am
cant deny it
but ive put u through enough pain
and im sorry
im sorry.
at this very moment
only one thing that i hope for.
is for u to be happy always
with me.

once again
imsorry

2008-06-10T12:44:00.002+08:00

i have proven it?

wtf!?

proven what?

why couldn't u just tell it straight to my face?

yar i dun deserve this shit

what did i do to deserve this?

have i hurt u badly?

have i vent my anger at u when something goes wrong

what did i do to deserve this?

karma?

F*ck karma

what goes around comes around?

but what did i do?

u want people to revive u?

i want myself dead!

2008-06-08T16:41:00.001+08:00

holidays are here

one more week to go ...

alot happened lately

gigs

works

hang outs.

haha

had been fun the past week.

still waiting for syidah to pass the pictures for gig.

when i have it i post it alright!

cheerrs!!!

i love u

2008-05-30T08:49:00.002+08:00

im sick
yes i am
sick of being the cause of my loved ones pissed
sick of being pissed at
sick of my life

Yes i know its not perfect on ur side
but at least u dont have ur mum against u.
sigh
i tried everything to please everybody.
everyone
yes everyone.
but it seems like the more i tried
the more i felt unappreciated.
last night.
i saw my mum shed her tears
u know why?
its because i didnt eat
but actually i did.
u know.
it is really so depressing
when ur mum
ur own mother
like having something against u
everything single thing u do
is not right
not right.
when i saw her shed her tears.
my heart drop.
as if theres a whole ir something.
am i a bad kid?
am i?
till my own mother turning against me.
haish
all i could hope for is for things to turn better.
but it seems so impossible.
sigh

at least i have my frens.
i just needed someone to let this go...

2008-05-28T15:24:00.002+08:00

now.
having science
bored
siak nyer cikguu!
ask so many freaking questions
half the class are gone...
hmm
so bored!!!!

BUT...
yesterday was funny.
girlfy wanted to try out my bike( Not the first time she try lar)
i told her so many times to put the side stand first before kick starting my bike
but she didnt
she wanted to start
suddeeennnlllllyyyyyyyy.....
DROP!!!!!!
she fell together with my bike
OUCH!!!!!
i was like
*SHOCKED*(jaw dropped)
it was cute though the way she fell
hahahahahahahah!!!!
she has a bump on her head.
my bike suffers minimal damage.
but still
HEART PAIN man.
i never drop it before
she drop it like its hot
hahahah!!!
farnyy
i should have taken a video
its ok baby.
it alright...
hope ur ok.
=)
khekehekh!!!!!!!

2008-05-27T08:40:00.001+08:00

IF THERE IS ONE WORD THAT I CAN USE TO DESCRIBE WHAT IM FEELING NOW
I WOULD USE
SHIT
YARH
FEELING SHIT INSIDE ME
NOT THAT SHIT BUT THE FEELING THAT U MIGHT CAVE IN
I DONT KNOW

ITS LIKE IM FEELING THAT IM NOT APPRECIATED.
ALL THE THINGS I DO IS WRONG.
DOES IT EVER OCCURS TO YOU THAT IM DOING THINGS BECAUSE OF YOU
MOTHER
YES, IVE BEEN LYING
BUT ITS JUST BECAUSE I DONT WANT YOU TO THINK OF ME BADLY
I KNOW YOU ALREADY HAVE
BUT MOST OF THE THINGS I DO
IS WRONG
SIGHH
IF I DONT EAT YOU WOULD MAKE SUCH A BIG FUSS
IM ALMOST 20
I DO WHAT I WANT
MAYBE YOU ARE WORRIED BUT I DONT THINK THATS THE WAY
SIGH
YOU SHOULD SEE HOW YOU TREAT MY BROTHERS
I JUST HOPE THAT ONE DAY YOU CAN TREAT ME LIKE MY BROTHERS
THATS ALL
IM ALMOST 20

TODAY, I JUST NEED THAT SOMEONE TO SMILE.
JUST YOUR SMILE
IT WOULD MAKE THINGS GO AWAY
SMILE
SMILE

2008-05-25T13:08:00.002+08:00

hmmm.....
well
yesterday watch congkak with parents....
Nice sound effects though.
But the story line..ZZzzZZZz
but spending time with my family was great..

theres alot of new things that i want.
but it seems i cant have them.

(envy)

2008-05-23T08:59:00.005+08:00

What a way to start the day
I thought I could start just the day better than yesterday.
But it seems like the heat is up.
U think i don’t feel it too???
Sighhh
Now eating hot dog pizza and iced milo in class.
Great.
What more can happen...

But the happy thing is that

my grades are quite alright

haaa

for last week

2008-05-22T21:03:00.003+08:00

hahahah!

today in class was fun...

well u wouldnt guess what fin, lizzy and me had been doing...

hahah

well

we search on the sex slangs or words to describe sex positions

hahah!!!

could not believe it.

we laugh so loud that the class was quite irritated( i think)

hahah

this started whe fin say she gets irritated when her bf uses such slangs

so she decided to be cuirious and check at www.urbandictionary.com

hahahh!! check that out.

but then fin went home

hah

dumb2

hee!!

2008-05-20T23:21:00.003+08:00

well

today was great.

my brother's band(Rancour) did a superb performance

very proud of them

Hope they can make it in the next round

of anugerah band

cheers brother!!!

but not all happy things happen

yesterday was the worst day of my life so far

she asked for it.

it didnt happen once

twice

it happens once last week.

i didnt know what's got into her

guess she had enough of me

fortunately

i did manage to control my emotions

not to act on impulse

sigh

but things are back to normal now

and it would remain as it is, i hope

I HOPE.

it may seems that im ok

but im screaming inside which u dont know

the numbness that felt was nothing compared

HOPE

is what im holding to.

2008-05-19T18:22:00.002+08:00

guess what?
I'VE BEEN DOING NOTHING FOR THE PAST 8 HOURS!

haishh
im dying here.
suffocating
hate this feeling
hmm
now nothing to do.
feeling shit
shit
shit
shit
hakzz
i would really wanna watch congkak
but..
nvm
hmm
and now someones playing marble upstairs.
and guess what?
from what i know theres no children upstairs.
shoot
adding to that
im all alone at home
crappssss
arghhh
kept having this feeling
haishh
no one can change this
not for now
i guess.
arghhh
its been long since i bowl too...
i really miss going out in a group.
having fun

i miss staying out late too.
there's lots of things i miss
but wells.
im too busy with all that.
wellss

the one thing that would really want to do nowis
something to do other than posting a blog.

haishhh......

2008-05-18T21:23:00.002+08:00

What does....

Sitting at home + Nothing to do = ????
Boredom!!!!!!

Sigh...

i thought i could go out tmr

but things...

are just not meant to be

shes got planss

now i know how she feels like

DISAPPOINTMENT

but i understand

now shes in my shoe

strange isn't it

KARMA....

i dont believe in that kind of crap.

but what goes around

comes around....

its ok.

i understand.

i just have to make plans

to create plans

get it?

outs!

2008-05-17T12:35:00.001+08:00

ok..
dont know why im blogging again.
but felt like it.
now i know how it feels like to blog.
to let out ur feelings and stuff.
it sounds gay right?
but
it makes me somehow feel better

Anyways... here are some pic

(first year celebrations)

wondering why she's like this.
i had no clue( can anyone give me a clue? please...)
i think im the cause of it(but what have i done?)
i really hope u could tell me
instead of shutting up.
please?

MAY 16

2008-05-17T01:19:00.000+08:00

well my very first entry.
feeling tired after figuring on how to use this crap.
Hmm
went out with my Gf just now
it was fun
but her mood was kinda down during the first part of movie(what happens in vegas)
nice show anyways
hmm

she say she was tired.
but....
hmm
nvm lar
nites!