the one

Thursday, December 18, 2008

today marks the 19th months that we are together.
eventhough these past few weeks have been rough. but i still love her anyway.
just hope that this relationship will last and that she will always be happy.
happy 19th monthsary dear.

digital love;
2:08 PM

Saturday, December 13, 2008

why?
why must this be happening..
why must we talk about it
why?
its ok...later it seems that im blaming u...
saying things so hurtful..u think ur the only one who is sad
well think again
me too have my feelings...not only u..
why do u have to be so hard up on me... as if i have done things that u cant forgive me with.
sitting alone at home today really adds up to the sadness.
sigh... treat me so harsh as if its gonna make things better.
so timid of me??
im not timid..im just afraid i might hurt u more... cant u see..all i can do is make u angry.
sighh..i have my feelings too.
yar after reading this u would somehow make fun of it..
its ok...i wouldnt want to blame u..im not blaming u either..
everything it will seem as if im blaming u.
so what for.
what for telling u how i feell...cause u urself are not good and im the cause of it..
sighh...i dun want say further..so selfish of me..i should think of others right..
like u said..i NEVER did understand u at all..

Well. YOUR WRONG!!
good bye
oh im the fucker who ran away...
thnks so much darling

digital love;
3:42 PM

Sunday, December 7, 2008

wah...
so long i never update...
haha...

been rather sick lately, sad. hurt. humiliated.
sigh...shes mad at me..because of those pictures at my brother's wedding.
she say alot of things that is so mean at her post. well its just how she get back at me.
letting everyone read about out private life. but im not gonna do that.
im just gonna tell u people how i feel. but not everything as somethings are just meant to be kept to oneself.
sigh. how can u say such things.
its not me who have the say back then. its my brothers wedding
yar we took pictures like its a family. BUT deep inside me. wishing that is was YOU.
i may smile but on the inside..im just so sad hurt that u are not invinted..
how i wish i can turn back time.
convincing my parents. But i dont want to be some child who is not obedient. i dont want that.
i have to follow my parents wishes and most importantly, my brother's as it is his wedding after all. i can expect people to follow what i want. Somethings in life that u want u can never get right?
i mean its just that i hope she understands. hope she would not take revenge.
its not me who wants this. I NEVER WANT THAT AT ALL.
but i have to follow.
why do u have to say those mean words.
i didnt mean to hurt u. if u want to get back at me.. then thats fine..
like u said. but i will never do things intentionally just to hurt u...
sigh...all i can do is just wish for the best...

why do u have to say those mean words....

digital love;
10:56 AM

Thursday, November 27, 2008

wow..
really excited. my eldest brother is going to get a baby girl soon..maybe around the afternoon
im sure he is so anxious waiting outside the delivery room now.
so excited for him..
i wonder what will he and his wife name the babygirl.
haha..im gona be an uncle soonn...soo ollllllddddd...khekhe

haish
start of the day was bad...
its not worth telling.
it will just be seen as im blaming.
Not worth telling

digital love;
8:38 AM

Saturday, November 15, 2008

i know its been long...since i updated...haish...
i have no to turn to.... feeling so lonely
alot has been happening lately...
happiness....fights..sadness..fightss...happiness...fightss and now...pure sadness...
so i decided to write a post.

sigh...this is to my dearest..
I know i have not been a good boyfren lately...blaming u...for everything.
im not.im not blaming u at all...its just that.. maybe im egoistic or something or im just dam stupid..
i am really feeling so down right now..being put down...harshness..without any feel for another person,maybe i deserve it...but not to this extend...its ok..i have to bear the consequences..
but i have feelings tooo...i know i hurt u..and im sorry..i didnt mean to hurt u. i dint mean to give u pain...never did i give up on us..but u did and i understand.its all me..im just so plain dumb that i cant even make u happy..now apart..wondering are u thinking of me now?? my mind have been occupied by u always...i wish i can be with u. happy moments...but i always have to ruin everything.
baby, im sorry for all the hurt and pain i gave u.
ill swear that i will make it up to u oneday..
please give me another chance so that my goal can be achieve; to make u happy.
i admit.im not perfect. not a perfect boyfren to u..
im just sorry...
yes this would not change anything...but..i just want u to know.
my life with u has been colourful...i dun want this to end. not ever..
ur my fren, my bestfren, my lover, my sayang, my baby, my love....
i have never been so happy until i met u...
kept thinking of when we got together..it was so sweet.. how i wish i can go back...
go back..ammend for the mistake i had done, for all the hurt i cause..
i really cherish u...please..dont leave.....

p.s. i miss u.forgive me my love.

digital love;
11:33 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

now at class...dang i hate it. really hate it.

all talk but no work. so what ur points that YOU SAY are good...or whatever shit. BLOWING SMOKE. then go watch ur shit at ur shitty laptop

haha.idiots.

well. yesterday was fun. I really wanted to buy her a small gift that can make her happy.

so on monday, i did search for the gift but unfortunately, northpoint was on renovation!!

dang. so i have to buy it infront of her at CP.

she got angry as i used my money on her but when i explained, she started cooling off and she was really happy about it.

wohoo!!

this is what i bought for her

digital love;
12:40 PM

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

wohooo.... alot happened lately..as usual im in school . haha with nothing to do..

alot have been happening dring the weekends!!

i go jalan raya with my gf and my friends.

firstly went to wani's house to visit her mum.. hee
took some pictures.

then first house was aidil's house.. alot of food being served. LONTONG. SAMBAL PRAWNS. and much more. Ate till i cant eat no more. wakakaka

wohoo delicious meal mann... wahh..almost everyhouse we went, theres foodd!!!!

im gonna gain wait lar..dangg. think 2 kgs already.

wohooo.reach home around 1030 cause i was too tired because the previous night, i went to jb and reach home around 6 am then 930 woke up lioazzz....

dang. here are some pictures!!

digital love;
11:05 AM