i know its been long...since i updated...haish...
i have no to turn to.... feeling so lonely
alot has been happening lately...
happiness....fights..sadness..fightss...happiness...fightss and now...pure sadness...
so i decided to write a post.


sigh...this is to my dearest..
I know i have not been a good boyfren lately...blaming u...for everything.
im not.im not blaming u at all...its just that.. maybe im egoistic or something or im just dam stupid..
i am really feeling so down right now..being put down...harshness..without any feel for another person,maybe i deserve it...but not to this extend...its ok..i have to bear the consequences..
but i have feelings tooo...i know i hurt u..and im sorry..i didnt mean to hurt u. i dint mean to give u pain...never did i give up on us..but u did and i understand.its all me..im just so plain dumb that i cant even make u happy..now apart..wondering are u thinking of me now?? my mind have been occupied by u always...i wish i can be with u. happy moments...but i always have to ruin everything.
baby, im sorry for all the hurt and pain i gave u.
ill swear that i will make it up to u oneday..
please give me another chance so that my goal can be achieve; to make u happy.
i admit.im not perfect. not a perfect boyfren to u..
im just sorry...
yes this would not change anything...but..i just want u to know.
my life with u has been colourful...i dun want this to end. not ever..
ur my fren, my bestfren, my lover, my sayang, my baby, my love....
i have never been so happy until i met u...
kept thinking of when we got together..it was so sweet.. how i wish i can go back...
go back..ammend for the mistake i had done, for all the hurt i cause..
i really cherish u...please..dont leave.....


p.s. i miss u.forgive me my love.